"We all think we are a little more ready than we are."
I think back to when I started college. I went back to school because I felt called to youth ministry and knew I needed a degree. However, I really looked at the classes as a formality. I knew I was ready for the job--I just needed the paperwork to back me up. 3 years later--I am coming to realize that I was not even close to ready to lead a youth ministry. Am I closer now? Yes. Am I ready? No.
I know that college is really about the journey not the degree, but I am truly amazed at what God has been teaching me over the past few years. Not 'college' stuff, but heart stuff. He is teaching me to:
Stay connected to Him
Be in His Word faithfully
Be honest about who I am and what I am capable of
Love others (especially those who are hard to love)
Believe the best about people
Be genuinely happy for others
Be relational versus relating
Believe in miracles
Know the difference between having faith and believing
Be still and wait
And, perhaps most importantly......
He is teaching me to be teachable. I am learning to say "I don't know" and I am learning that, well, ..........I have a lot to learn.
Thank You Lord for being my Teacher and Counselor. The degree I will receive in a couple of years will never accurately describe the true Knowledge that I am receiving. Thank You for closing some doors and preparing me to be the woman You need me to be in order to truly serve You.